HPDBC Chapter 37 Jiang Sifan's Inner Struggle
Chapter 37 Jiang Sifan's Inner Struggle
Hailan Dormitory at Jinling University.
Because Jiang Silu participated in the Garden Cup Design Competition with her senior classmates, she spent her free time these past two days designing drafts in her dormitory.
Because her computer lags a lot when running drawing software.
Her senior classmates then asked her to first make a simple sketch with a pencil.
She spent two hours drawing a draft, but it was only a small part.
This also made Jiang Silu's neck a little sore.
Just then, Song Miaomiao returned from outside.
She asked in surprise, "Lulu, why are you still drawing?"
Jiang Silu explained, "Since I didn't have class this afternoon, I decided to finish drawing this manuscript."
Song Miaomiao walked over, shaking her head in shock: "You...you've only finished a small part after more than two hours of drawing. How long would it take you to finish the manuscript? Why don't you use a computer?"
Jiang Silu said awkwardly, "My computer lags a lot when I use it to draw in CAD or SketchUp, it's probably slower than when I draw by hand."
"Then you can use mine." Song Miaomiao immediately went to her seat and handed the computer to Jiang Silu.
"No need, no need," Jiang Silu said with a smile. "You're going to watch a show later, so I thought I wouldn't need your computer."
"What does it matter?" Song Miaomiao replied, "I can just use my phone to watch it. You can use the computer for as long as you want. Don't make yourself suffer."
When Jiang Silu heard Song Miaomiao say, "Never wrong yourself," she bit her lip and remembered the laptop Lu Fan had given to Jiang Sifan under the bed.
Perhaps a laptop should be able to handle it?
But it was a gift from Lu Fan to Jiang Sifan, and it would be impolite to use it without permission.
So Jiang Silu sent Jiang Sifan a WeChat message: [Brother, are you busy?]
At that moment, Jiang Sifan was lying in bed thinking about the 10,000 yuan startup capital. After seeing the message from Jiang Silu, he replied: [What's wrong? The moment you say the word "brother," I get chills.]
Jiang Silu: [What do you mean? Can't I call you brother?]
Jiang Sifan: [Nothing to worry about, Jiang Sifan. If you need anything, call your older brother. Tell me, what do you need me to do for you?]
Jiang Silu: [Actually, it's nothing much, I just wanted to let you know.]
Jiang Sifan: [What is it?]
Jiang Silu: [Didn't he give us a whole box of gifts before?]
When Jiang Sifan saw that Jiang Silu was about to bring up that man again, she immediately lost the will to continue the conversation.
Jiang Sifan: [What happened? All the gifts he bought were from Pinduoduo? Are they already broken?]
Jiang Silu: [How could that be? It's not that easy to break. Actually, I wanted to tell you that he came looking for me again later.]
Jiang Sifan: [He contacted you again? No, so you really treat him like your father. He gave you an iPhone, and you're all over him calling him "Dad." Don't forget how hard Mom worked to raise us all these years. How can you forget your roots?]
Jiang Silu: [Jiang Sifan, who are you calling ungrateful?! He contacted me because of your matter.]
Jiang Sifan: [Regarding my situation, I'm perfectly fine. What could possibly be wrong with me?]
Jiang Silu: [He probably learned from your mother that you don't have a laptop, but your major requires one, so one of the gifts was a really nice laptop. He also considered your preferences and bought Kyrie Irving basketball shoes and Kobe Bryant's star jersey.]
When Jiang Sifan saw this message, his brows furrowed slightly.
Indeed, any 18-year-old boy would probably be delighted to see these gifts.
Jiang Sifan is also a human being; he also experiences joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness.
He had his eye on a pair of Kyrie Irving basketball shoes before, but unfortunately they were too expensive, so he hadn't been able to bring himself to buy them.
But most importantly, he didn't expect Lu Fan to actually buy him a laptop.
He does need to use a laptop to do his homework now because of his major.
But when he thought about how deeply this guy had hurt his mother, he couldn't help but think about it.
He's been called a bastard for over a decade because of this.
Jiang Sifan was so angry that she just couldn't calm herself down.
Jiang Sifan: [I will not accept those gifts, even if they are the gifts I want. I have my own principles, and I have no right to interfere with your choices. If you accept those gifts, I can only express my respect.]
Jiang Silu: [The problem is this: you refused to accept it, so he found me, handed me the whole box, and said that if you couldn't finish your homework and your grades dropped because you didn't have a computer, it would be a huge loss, and asked me to talk to you about it sometime.]
Jiang Silu: [A few days ago, my advisor asked me to assist my seniors in participating in the Landscape Architecture Cup design competition. It was an opportunity to gain experience, but my computer is too slow; the mouse won't even move when running those drawing software programs.]
Jiang Silu: [I was thinking about whether I could use the laptop he gave you. After all, he gave it to you, so it's yours. I need your permission to use it.]
Jiang Sifan then understood what was going on.
His sister must have gone through a long internal struggle before sending him the message.
Otherwise, given her personality, she definitely wouldn't use the things in the box unless absolutely necessary.
Thinking about this, Jiang Sifan couldn't help but feel a little guilty.
He had just spoken to his sister in that same tone.
But if I agree, wouldn't that indirectly mean I've accepted the gift from that man?
As long as Jiang Sifan doesn't agree to accept the box, she can still live an upright life and dislike him with dignity.
But if she agrees to let Jiang Silu use the items in her box, it would mean that she has accepted the man's kindness.
Jiang Sifan was suddenly caught in a dilemma.
On one hand, there's Jiang Silu's predicament in the design competition; on the other hand, there's the inner hurdle she can't overcome.
After hesitating for a few seconds, Jiang Sifan finally gave up her inner struggle.
Compared to his own suffering, he would rather his sister have a better life.
Jiang Sifan: [It's okay, you can use it. Mom told me before that if that man gave us a gift, we shouldn't feel guilty; it's something he owes us. Since that's the case, I won't use it, so you can use it.]
Jiang Sifan: [After all, you need this computer to participate in the design competition; we can't let your abilities go to waste.]
Jiang Silu's eyes welled up with tears after seeing these two messages.
She knew her brother was extremely proud and a very firm person.
The decision I just made must have been made after several internal struggles.
Jiang Silu: [Don't worry, brother, I will definitely design the work well and try my best to win a prize in the Landscape Architecture Cup competition with my senior classmates.]
Jiang Sifan: [Getting a ranking isn't enough, we have to get first place. I believe my sister definitely has the talent.]
Jiang Silu: [I'm just a freshman right now, only assisting my seniors. My involvement in the entire project is probably only around 20%, so it doesn't require any special talent.]
Jiang Sifan: [With years of hard work and gradual accumulation, you were already participating in competitions in your freshman year. As a senior in your sophomore year, wouldn't you be able to stand on your own?!]
Jiang Sifan has always used this kind of brainwashing praise to motivate Jiang Silu since she was a child.
This also explains why Jiang Silu's grades have always been better than his.
But Jiang Silu knew that her brother was smarter than her.
However, during his years of schooling, he was distracted by too many factors, and his English grades were not very good. Even though he excelled in mathematics and science, he ultimately failed to meet the score requirement for Jinling University.
However, Jiang Silu believes that with Jiang Sifan's ability and resilience, he will definitely be able to make a name for himself in the future!
Jiang Silu: [Brother, yay!]
Jiang Sifan: [What?! Who possessed my sister? Give her back right now! My sister isn't like this!]
Jiang Silu: [Jiang Sifan, are you trying to get yourself killed? It's rare for me to be moved like this.]
Jiang Sifan: [Okay, thank you, Possession Master, for returning my sister to me.]
Jiang Silu: 【@#*&（……%￥##）】
After complaining about Jiang Sifan, Jiang Silu bent down and took out the box from under the bed.
Just as she opened the box, Lu Yao returned.